I know Evan will be glad when most of our new surprises come from his new pride and joy of a baby and not from his wife. It has certainly been an interesting first 20 weeks and we are learning a lot.
Who knew that you could be feeling awesome one minute and be crying or puking the next? Who knew that barbecue could become the means for a house divided overnight (I mean, I just can't take that smell right now). Who knew that camping out and only have beef jerky and Gatorade wouldn't be the best of ideas? Who knew that a burrito from Moe's would sound soooo good every. single. day.
Well, we didn't know, but we do now!
We have also found out that putting together a baby crib isn't as intimidating as it seems but deciding on baby colors, curtains and bedding are what turn into the daunting tasks. We know how exciting it can be to be shown an ultrasound and see that your baby is in fact starting to look like a baby and less like an alien (we are pretty pumped about that) and how much fun it is to drive people crazy by not finding out the baby's gender. And, we know that we have a long way to go before we are "fully equipped parents" (if that ever happens).
I must say though, we have an awesome support system. Family, friends and coworkers ask us daily how we are feeling and take whatever the answers may be with a smile. People have showered us with books, advise and love and we are doing our best to soak it all up. People around the church have slowly learned that there will be a new baby in the mix and are eager to congratulate us and rub my belly (which is another discussion in and of itself).
So, what is next? Well, I have a feeling that next comes a little thing called AHHHH I'M FREAKING OUT! Yep, that sounds about right. We are now to the part in life where we have to start thinking about child care and insurance and how to feed a 3rd mouth. We are to the point where things get real and aren't just cute and fuzzy dreams anymore. We are to the point where we have to be the parents and not just people excited about a baby. I mean it is a real life human after all and not just a baby in a photograph. It will grow and have needs and we are the ones that are in charge of taking care of those needs. So sure, I'm freaking out a little. I'm excited and I'm nervous and I don't want to make decisions that will lead my kid to years and years of counseling in the future. No pressure though, just in charge of a life here.
Whew. So here is to the next 20 weeks. Here is to the all the things we are about to learn and all the decisions we are about to make. Here is to the all the people that have shown me and are showing me that it is possible to not totally screw up your child or be a complete failure. Here is to all the people that are real in sharing their experiences, helping us know how things actually go down and that it is OK to make mistakes. Here is to becoming the parent and not acting like the child.
Lets get our prayer on people.
Ma and Pa